Mangled, Pt 2

Published November 5, 2013 by rebelpet

I feel so lost and I have so many questions because of that. Why does it feel like I’m losing you? I don’t feel you like I used to and it scares me. I know you have a lot on your mind right now and I’m trying to be patient. Then panic rises inside me and I can’t think logically. What if someone convinces you that I’m nothing but a player and you dump me? If that would happen, all I would see is a barren landscape and a piece of me would die. You don’t talk as much as you used to and I feel you holding back. I try to be as open with my life as possible but you……

It feels like I will never hear from you again, that you have disappeared from my life and I don’t know if I can handle that. You promised to always keep in touch…I’m starting to feel like that babysitter on The Incredibles, only there isn’t another person. I feel like you have abandoned me  </3

I don’t want to guilt you into anything but a talk would help tremendously. I’m trying to keep from becoming hysterical but its too late…If my phone would ring and it would be you, I wouldn’t be able to speak at first and you would hear first-hand. I don’t lay myself bare to people but you, you are different. god, I can’t take this!!!!!! Screaming your name in my mind, trying to keep from being audible but your name escapes. So now I log off because I feel that you don’t want anything to do with me anymore. I’ll do my best to keep my ultimate promise  but its going to be a huge struggle that I hope I don’t lose

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