A long-distance D/s relationship is hard and I’ve been feeling worthless and lax lately. Sir has been understanding, perhaps too much. But then I read a blog post, (http://liferideswithgloria.wordpress.com/2013/01/24/why-a-submissive-should-obey/,) and it was quite sobering. My Sir chose me and although I may not understand why at times, to doubt his decision is doubting him, his wisdom and everything about him. That is a slap to my face which I obviously need. I trust him completely and I wasn’t intentionally doubting him, but myself. But still my actions had to have hurt him and I hate myself for causing him any pain after he has been so good to me and so understanding. I know that in the future, I shall be turning to that post as a reminder of my decision and ultimately his decision.
Sir, I am truly sorry for my recent actions. How can I make it up to you?